As I sit down to write this, I am reminded of
this Lyric, sung by Reb Tevye, in Fiddler on the Roof.
He’s thinking about “If I were a Rich
Man”
The last verse reads:
If I were
rich, I'd have the time that I lack to sit in the synagogue and pray
And maybe have a seat by the Eastern wall
And I'd discuss the holy books with the learned men,
several hours every day
And that would be the sweetest thing of all
Approaching the this year, I thought “I’m
finally going to DO it. I’m going to invest in Self-study and Self compassion,
Studying the mystical topics I want to study. I’m wanting to practice the
practice and walk the walk—which I don’t think I’ve really made the time to do
in the past 3 years.
In the
last three years, I’ve learned some (unflattering) things about myself and my
spiritual walk. I’m recognizing that authenticity is significant in one’s
spiritual journey, and some how I’ve veered from some of that.
Some of the things I’ve learned:
1) Even I can be bought. What is my
price? Appreciation.
I
wasn’t getting respect and certainly wasn’t being compensated accordingly, but
flatter me…and I am yours too command
(how gross,
right?)
2) Teaching the walk and techniques is
not the same as integrating the walk and techniques in one’s own life.
3) I have my own magic and
mysticism-waiting for me to utilize it
for myself.
4) Healing might take longer than I
expect..but if I nurture the process, healing will occur.
So, I plan on investing in my own soul ,
mysticism this year. I have resolved that I am available for readings. I plan
on conducting the Tarot Tuesday group meetings.
In
future, I might integrate the Tarot Immersion, in the future. But right now,
I’m
doing my self-love worksheets, I’m working with my Writual Planner
And working with private events.
Until
Next time,
Eat
something healthy
And live
a life worth loving.
-Kim Danbert
